✿ I'm Happy with it! ✿

Nahh~ I'm sick now.. I'm having severe sore throat and flu,

I'm losing my voice~ I'm wondering how to get on call tomorrow

with the voice i'm having now~

Whatever! I'm not going to take MC tomorrow~

I'm started to love this job, love our team..

Although there's time whereby they forced me

wearing saree like yesterday, it's still a precious memory for me

having such caring and loving colleagues around me.

Especially when they shouted and cheering for me whenever

I got sales. They even tell stories to cheer me up whenever I'm not

on mood, it worked! Our team might not creative enough, some

times even no discipline for those who always come late, Oscar!!!! XD

But our team is doing the best whenever it comes to fight for our pride~

Nahh~ Jeff, we got the Hari Raya hamper for you, of course

it's for us as well. At least, I contributed into it, thanks to Jeff

for helping me to close the sales. I managed to close 2 as last. Hahaa~

Before this, I was wondering why Samantha gets so well with her

new colleagues, I started to understand why is it so~

But still, I'm not agree with what she's doing now.

Yo! It's holiday today. But I ended up stuck @ home,

boring naaahh~ No one even bother to ask me out, saddd~

Janey is busy having party with her colleagues,

Trace is busy having her own sweet time with Lucas.

Me? Busy having own sick time listening to Darling's songs

and blogging.

I'm quite enjoy working now, although there's time whereby

stupid CM forgot his wife's name and D.O.B, CM not interested

even before presentation, CM teased me that I'm stupid woman~

I believed I did a quite a good job last 2 weeks, but I still have

far way to go now. My aim is way higher than what I've now.

Shhh~ It's secret! XD Yeah! Cheer for Amanda!

Everyday is a new fresh day! ^^v Go for it!!!!!

✿ I really don't know what happened to me~ ✿

Started to work since 4th of August,2010. It started with 9 days of so called "comprehensive training". I really enjoyed those days, laughed whole day during the training~

I don't know since when, I stopped laughing.

I really didn't realise it if my team leader never tell me about it. He started to tell me a lot of so called "theories". At 1st I was alright, but just don't know how, my face started to get red, my eyes are blurring. I cried.. He asked me why? I really don't know how to answer to this question. I just shook my head hardly, and said, nothing. He repeated the question quite a few times, but I still didn't manage to answer to his question. So, he just explained a lot of things, which I don't really remember now, but I do understand 1 thing, he said:" 没学行，就唔好学走 ；没学走，就唔好先学飞~" He said, I won't be crying if I'm not feeling stress. But I really don't know how "stress" is like, but I realised that I'm feeling stress is that when I couldn't sleep well at night, I started to wake up more frequently at night, like last time when I studied CAL, studied Chemistry. I knew, this is caused by the stresses in me.

Yesterday morning, right after team briefing, he started asked me:" Amanda, are you okay? Today your target is not to get a sale, you just need to present, no need to be stressed, alright? " Omgosh, I lost my control once again, he realised it, and he talk to the teammates :" Saya tak boleh tengok muka dia lagi lah, dia sudah nak nangis ni!" Haha... Once he finished talking, I laughed and started crying~ I really don't know what the hell happened to me~ Hahahaa~ After that, of course it's a long long story... What can I say is, I cried about 6-7 times last 2 days..

My teammate, Oscar keep asking me whether or not to prepare a resign letter for me. Hahaha~ LOLX... For my friends, who understand me really well, I won't give up that easily. Since before I got the call from Jia Yee, who was HR for my company, I already understand very well that this job is not easy. I stepped out my 1st step, I won't stop unless I got what I want. I never ever think before I want to resign. I'm just feeling angry that I couldn't contribute to my team when my teammates are working hard. I'm just feeling angry that I made more trouble to my team leader. What they told me, it just touched me a lot.

I'm trying to get rid of the bad mood, looking for the energetic and smiling Amanda. Haha.. My team leader gave me a nickname, called LadyGuard baby~ Lolx~ He said because I cried too much. Hahah~ There is a lot funny things happened since I joined the team, I love my team, all my teammates. They gave me a new life, they taught me a lot new stuffs. I hope I can stay in the team with them forever, at least until, if one day, LadyGuard is dismissed. I will do better next Monday!

Cheer up, shin! ^^